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So I was deleting old emails from my js account and...

i was going through my js email account

and I came across a ton of mesages from old friends. I came across numbers ,invites to parties at peoples houses and random pics dnb freinds had sent me.It made me sad.So many of the people who sent me the messages don't go out anymore. I don't go out any more. Some of these peole are people who were a part of my life at some time and have managed for one reason or another to gradually drop off the radar. I don't know why I am posting this. I guess..I realize that js will soon be gone.Not that it seems to be that big a loss.but it used to be cool(; I guess things never stay the same. I miss all the friends I made and never see. I miss the way dnb made me feel. I miss the sense of community which(at one time not so long ago) felt so vibrant and alive. Well, I guess I am writing this to the friends who I had great conversations with.I am writing this to the friends who I have shared memories with.To The friends who i never call because I cant seem to find the time .The friends who i never call because we are no longer friends due to petty s**t. To the friends who i just straight lost contact with. i miss you guys..
things change.Change is not a bad thing.But, change still makes me sad sometimes. Maybe it is a sign that i am far from enlightenment. Maybe it means I am overly sentimental. I guess I have a few regrets. i owe a few people apolgies..and I miss alot of you..but yeh..
i jsut wanted to say..i miss you guys..I miss the scene I was part of. the scene that has passed into history. the sense of family I once felt..(deluded or not) i was part of . it was great i will remember you and it for ever..
umm..
yeh..
hi
(;

up on the hill after kj..
hehe spaceland and the system we all bitched about.the system i would pay an outrageous sum to hear in the setting we all enjoyed. All the old MB and wreck parties..audio at the ornage show packed like sardines and baked out of my mind(; audio at the orange show blunted...dancing in the freindly pit with the wreck heads. Drum and bassics...wack ass parties at the masterdome..respect at boardners...nebula kru at bar azure..progress at bar azure...the JS bbq's...
the vibelfow parties..
ahh memories
spinna phixion(heheh) breaking off the tip of his headphones in my crappy numark mixer(;
The how sweet it isnt party. The halloween party at vibeflow...the databass parties. damn...the midnioght bombers cosmo brown and i threw..cosmo brown..wow..where is he..umm..the palmetto wharehouse..that old tire shop that a Mb and that wreck uprising party were at. umm..damn..
ok I am done(;

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I feel ya...back in the late 90's I used to get out frequently, now I'm lucky if I have time to burn a mix CD and listen to it in my car on my way to work.

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damn hommie why ya gotta get us all chocked up so early like?! That was the greatest little reminisce. We WILL see you in the desert.

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yeah mang....i feel you alan.

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I feel ya on this one Alan......

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damn that spinna' phixion guy.

we miss you, too, alan.


and I thought I told you to quit making tops out of your old jeans? it's just not right, sir.

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wtf!? that is a funny picture lol

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My life is moving forward. things are difficult. i struggle..as we all do. But, i look forward to the future and am glad I am were I have ended up. I just wish I could bring those things I miss with me as i grow. Life, balance..and cause and effect ,I suppose.

[ alan - 16 Oct 2003 11:13 ]

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and isn't it funny how we(humans) so often take for granted what it is that we have. we bitch and moan. We live through monumental periods of our life half(at best) conscious of these moments siginificance. We look back long after the time has passed, and wonder how it is that that time passed by so quickly. It seems so rare that we relaiz that time goes by so quickly because we do not cultivate the ability to extend every moment into infinty. we are so often less the fuly present. memory seems to be more fully felt then the moments we are in right now. wow, i feel the zen mind slowly merging with my "every day mind".
life...
hehhe
where are we going were have we been.
and really really..
what does it all mean...
DONT KNOW
be here now
(;

[ alan - 16 Oct 2003 11:29 ]

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alan
you always seem to post the most thought provoking post...thanks again...

I myself remember the days of Science in santa monica...
The venue was cool(actually hotter then hell -no air ventillation) the vibe was really comfortable...
For me, it was f'king exciting - it was new for me at that time...i thought i had found IT (whatever that means)
We've talked about this once, about feeling that we were part of a "movement" that was beyond the love of the music itself...something that would have "social impact" and there did seem to be a certian attitude, or vibe and connection (as part of /within the context of the whole "dance"/"electronica" scene).
It has never been about "party" to me...i avoided the 'social' aspect of it even as i tried to make friends...
I haven't made many...but i have avoided alot of the drama...which has helped to keep the music as the focus of why i continue to go out (to respect and a couple of others).
It was ( and still is to some degree) so "radical"...it spoke to me of "change" "upheavel" the future.(thats just my particular take on it)
And f**k - dnb made me DANCE!!
I never knew, (nor did i have the guts) i could dance!!
I too, feel that some (or alot) of that is lost, yet my love for the music is still strong...Everybody i know complains that all i listen to is dnb (it drives my girlfried crazy!)
And that could be a problem (actually i do listen to alot of other types of music) but nothing, even after all these years, nothing gets me going like some amen breaks, or some menacing dark s**t - esp the amens - i never get sick of hearing it.
For me, that's what it's about - the sounds, - this style of music - stripped down to basics. I have hope that things will get better - definitly more interesting - but i don't think it's too late...or that all is lost...
i dont know...it's a contradiction, cause at the same time...in light of what up in the world - it not THAT important is it? our little scene, here in LA? Yet we are in the middle of s**t - are impacted by it all and impact back on it...
whatever...

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your right , life changes...
something else will come along
and catch your passions on fire again...
I've seen a few "scenes" movements pass my way:
punk, post punk, conscience hip-hop/rap, dnb...

now what exciting (it's happened before in differnt contexts) a mixing and blending of musical styles and forms...into a hybrid - which brings along with it different cultures that meet and coalese yet keep themselve distinct from ea other....
(hmmm...i'm not sure what im saying.... oh, i think its lunch time)

call me alan...

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oh, Alan. I understand that feeling and can relate so well to what you're saying. I've seen so many people come and go.

What is that saying? Something like "People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime." I can't really remember, but yeah, life expands and contracts. We unconsciously make space for new things and people and let go of the old.

*sigh*

[ missanita - 16 Oct 2003 13:54 ]

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yea i had a rave diary in the late 90s & I go through it every now and again, ahhh the scene was soo positive back then...

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one of those 'never know what youve had untill its gone' type deals...

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